I just denied an offer for me to go abroad and work in Tokyo, because of my Mom's health situation ="(((( I feel like shit right now, so sorry, I can't reply any comment for now because I don't want to let my negativity out to bitch at the world. The decision was made pretty quick but, oh well, it hurts, as it should be. Though she thinks I ain't worth nothing, she's still is my Mom and I can't help it, I can not leave.
2 years a go I really, really could never think that such a seemingly wonderful offer could stir up such dark emotions, geezzz.
I do want to die and leave all my responsibilities behind sometimes TT____TT
But don't worry, I won't. That's cowardly, and I don't want to be a coward.