Sorry, can't be happy for now

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I just denied an offer for me to go abroad and work in Tokyo, because of my Mom's health situation ="(((( I feel like shit right now, so sorry, I can't reply any comment for now because I don't want to let my negativity out to bitch at the world. The decision was made pretty quick but, oh well, it hurts, as it should be. Though she thinks I ain't worth nothing, she's still is my Mom and I can't help it, I can not leave.

2 years a go I really, really could never think that such a seemingly wonderful offer could stir up such dark emotions, geezzz.

I do want to die and leave all my responsibilities behind sometimes TT____TT

But don't worry, I won't. That's cowardly, and I don't want to be a coward.
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Eveqi

I'm sorry you had to deny the offer :petting: Things doesn't happen without a reason and so I believe, that this offer wasn't the last one. If you feel the love and responsibility to take care of your mom, you are surely responsible also at work, what is appreciated by both - colleagues and bosses and if you are strong enough and feel so much love to your family, it means you can make right decisions, you have the priorities of life set well and you are no psycho neither careerist who will die on heart attack by too much stress and too few sleep. If not your mom, than all people around you will see you now as adult, kind and loving person ;)

So don't be too sad, friend, life is full of wins and losses.. and the fun on it is, we can't never tell, which is which, maybe you wouldn't like the new job at the end, maybe something much better is waiting for you :hug: